Busy BEE

Wow! I have been so busy with running around driving kids places, doctor visits, volunteer meetings, AWANA's and just trying to be a good mommy and wife. Can really be a full time job. Loving life though. Good night I will try to get on here and really update this.

Yesterday was busy!

Tiger, is loving her school. She was so excited about wearing her favorite outfit. She told her dad that she is going to even look cuter today. Funny little chick. She is still having a hard time tying her shoes, and gets frustrated at moments. She started crying before PE because it was taking too long to put on and tie. I think she was afraid they would leave without her. Her teacher is very patient and helped her.
Tiger is too cute her favorite thing about her teacher is her long nails. Mom dropped her off for her first time at the flag pole. I worry that she is going to be teased or get picked on. I am sure most mothers thinks theses things.

Anna has already planned and told me over and over what she is wearing to cubbies and how she is going to do this and that and she will be wearing bows in her hair. I am so glad she has this to make her feel like a big kid.

Griz is loving having Haven and Justice here to play. It has been quiet for him. When we pick up Tiger he starts clapping his hand and squealing. Tiger has the touch with him. Yesterday Anna leaned into give him a kiss and he bit her lip. Ohh, was there emotion in the room. LOL

Gabe is getting ready for his fantasy football. I read his newsletter and I laughed the way he writes.
Here I will attach it.
Another Season of Fantasy Football is about to kick off! I want to congradulate Kacey Joesophson as our last year Champion as much as it hurts me to say that Kacey Won it all last year probably as an underdog coming into the playoffs, good Job Kacey. I am thinking about designing a T-Shirt for this years Champion, I will see what kind of feedback I get. With Kacey winning championship we have added a couple more wives to the mix this year. I would like to welcome Lydia Bower (Glock's Therapy) to the Fantasy Football world. My awesome wife Susanna Evins also wanted to try her luck at Fantasy football. I will be advising her as she gets started but she is a quick study and will pick it up quickly. I do not want her to beat me that would be kind of bad someone that knows nothing about football beating me oh wait my sister Kacey did that last year. John Bower is back this year and it is good to have hime back in the league he is always a great owner. We also have an old friend of mine Whorod who is a die hard Patriots fan so enough said we know what he is like. Whorod is a great guy that I met through the Madden world and I would like to welcome all the new owners and wish everyone luck.

The first step is to check your time zone and try and make the live draft if you can, if you cannot I would recommend that you pre-set your list but if not then you will recieve the top guys that are available. The Draft is this Friday 6:00 pm AK time. You might want to take a look at the scoring system before the draft so there is no suprises.

In Closing, all I ask is that you take the time once a week for 5 minutes to at least set your roster so that nobody gets an easy win even if you are out of it. If during the season you notice something that make the league better next year let me know and I will make a note of it. Have fun and trash talking is always welcome.
Thanks


To funny I guess I need research. Yuck!

Another day

Tiger started her first day of Kindergarten. Wow, was I not expecting the emotion to flood me. Gabe held me last night as I wet for the 5 years that at that moments I wanted to speed up. And now I want all back and never to go away. To think that all I get of her is weekends and 4 hours in the evening before bed. When did they change 1/2 days to full 8 hours days for the little ones. I feel guilty for the moments I said was to busy to listen or the impatient moments I wanted to tap out. I see myself alone in 4years with a totally different life. And all I want is the one I have. These are the greatest days of my life and I see them slipping away quickly and it scares me. I love my life getting the kids dressed, fed, bustling around my house, playing with them, the cuddling moments, there voices in the background of my day as they play. I am never wanting that to go away. Now I know why woman have many children.

Anna is coping very well, except there is jealousy of why sissy gets to be at school around other children. On our way home she was talking about being a Cubbie and how she wants to bring a lunch there. Then she hit me up about picking up Havy Baby to play with her. I knew that I wasn't going to be the best company today. But in some ways feeling this has made me even more aware of the limited time I have with her and what I want to share while she is still at home. But while you are in the moment it is a struggle to keep the focus and she begins to wine :)

Grizzly and I danced in the living room this morning. Looking at him bring alot of memories back of Tiger. The look very similar excpet Grizzly is more a pleasant baby. He smiled up at me and gave me kisses on my arm as I sang to him as we waltzed on the slab of carpet. Looking at him and feeling like there is time is refreshing.

Gabe amazes me sometime how soft hearted he is. He really wanted to go the school today and drop Tig of. He listened to me until midnight weeping on how I wish I had more time or how I wish there was another baby we could have. He let me fill a puddle on his chest and rubbed my arm and and back. Knowing that all I wanted was for him to listen. Funny how the first 4 years all I wanted was my business and now I don't want to be done having children.

Ok, I am here... told you I was going to do this

Well, Tiger starts school for the first time tomorrow and I very excited for her. She is talking about school and how she is going "field tripping". Tiger just told me Anna isn't aloud to have a cookie because there to hot, but there ok for her.

Anna was telling Tiger that she is going to miss her and she started getting weepy. But then in the next breath she is like I am going to craft projects with mommy while your gone sissy. The middle child syndrome coming out. Same day I will type the locket story in here.

GrizzlyDean is getting so big next month he will be 1 years old. He gives kisses know with out using his teeth. Unless your his sister and you wont stop kissing him. Then he because a vampire.

Gabe and the girls made cookies this morning for Tiger's school lunch. He is so patient with the girls. It was cute how he was helping Anna tie her apron. Theses large hand fumbling with little strings.

4 years later...

I forgot all about these moments. I am so glad there still here to read. I wish I had documented the other kids this way. I am going to turn over a new leaf and start writing.

THIS IS NOT ME, BUT I FEEL LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!!

Frazzled

Well, my title speaks quite clearly about how I am feeling. There are only 2 &1/2 rooms I can live in right now. My whole house is a sheetrock, muddy mess. The living room, kitchen, dining room, and hallways are getting textured. I can hardly move in my house. Tiger is a prisoner in her room or the bathroom. My bedroom is storing everything out of the dinning room. All my plants are in dark rooms in the house where the mud won't get on them or on Tiger. Then, I decided that I would take two girls overnight because their mom had no one else.

Between the "why" questions all day, and Tiger and the youngest girl whining, I felt like I could blow. Then I had a 4 yr. old come for a FEW HOURS. I felt like I was going to have a melt down. I thought before the day started that we would play outside. It rained from 10am on. My bathroom and Tiger's bedroom wasn't enough. I can't cook in my house. I had to bring the kids to R-place, which they loved. Tiger out-ate them all on her chicken strip. Well, that's what we thought until we looked under the table.

When Gabe got home I decided that I needed a dark beer, and I knew I could get it at Pizza Hut--which made Gabe happy. He is an avid lover of pizza. I think he used to eat it every night before he married me. Well, last night it didn't settle well; he was up all night w/ heart burn and throwing up. He is all stressed about flying, and I am no support because I can't think in this house. Granted, it will look awesome when it's done. But, in Gabe's words, "I am a clean freak, and I am freaking out because I can't handle a sock on the ground, let alone mud pieces, sheet rock, tools, dirt, wood, etc." There is just no order. I am going insane. I can't even make coffee for myself.

So I went a little crazy last night. I screamed, "I feel like I am alone here. I have given Tiger and one of the other girls a bath twice now. I can't handle the whining and the needing." Right after that Tiger started crying and she need more of me--some boob.

I would love to say I feel lots better today, but no, I do not. Today we are moving the stove away from the wall so they can mud behind there. Gabe is flying out tomorrow for his best friend's funeral, so we have alot to get done. I know he would love for me to surprise him and have it all done by 12pm Sunday when he gets home, but that isn't realistic. I have a 1o month old, and there is no one I trust to take care of her for hours. On top of that, I promised Ty that I would help her clean her tiles she is laying Saturday. God, when is it going to end? Where I can sit and my mind won't be racing?

Naked butt 

Tiger and her Adventures

Well, Tiger loves to run around naked, pushing her walker everywhere. She is so cute. All her fat on her butt and back jiggles with every movement she makes.

Yesterday, she went outside (dressed) to help me work in my flower beds. She was elbows deep in the sod, loving it. She is going to be the best gardener. I hope to learn w/ her. She loves touching the flowers that are blooming. It's hard for her to be gentle though w/ the petals. I can't wait to show her what tigerlilies are.

Tiger gets so excited around other children. Yesterday, we had a few kids over, and the neighbor girl was giving the kids rides in her jeep. There is something about driving that fascinates us all. Well, Tiger was trying chase them down. I finally let her go for her ride, buckled her in, and ran next to it. Wow! They can actually go fast. Finally, her ride was over, and I took her out. Was she ever mad. She wants to be a BIG kid. I just love her--even if she is throwing fits on the ground at 10 months old. She is learning what no is, and she doesn't get her way.

I think the hardest was training her to soothe herself to sleep, while I was standing outside her door, hearing her heart so sad. But, now we put her in bed, and she rolls over, puts her face smooshed up to the bumper, and falls asleep. An Angel.